If You Only Knew

C
I've been trying so hard to survive
          G6/B
Sometimes I think that I wanna die
Dm
I feel so fucking guilty cuz god
                  F
I'm so lucky to live my life

C
So I keep all the pain to myself
         G6/B
Losing faith but nobody can tell
         Dm
Mom, I don't want you worried cuz that would just hurt me
        F             Fm
So I pretend I'm fine

              C
If you only knew
                                    G
What my mind is telling me I should do
                                    Dm
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
                        F
I'm too sad to cry it's true
         C
If you knew

                                       G
All the shit my brain is putting me through
                                        Dm
You'd come running over straight to my room here tonight
                       F7M
I'm sorry but I need you
              C
If you only knew

C
I wish I was somebody else
         G6/B
I'm constantly overwhelmed
           Dm                                 Em/B
Now I'm falling again getting drunk with some friends
         F
It's a silent cry for help
              Am                  G
I wanna get better, I want you to know
                 F
That I can't do this on my own

              C
If you only knew
                                 G
What my mind is telling me I should do
                                      Dm
That I'm drunk and all alone in  my room here tonight
     F                    G
I'm too sad to cry it's true
              C
If you only knew
                                       G
All the shit my brain is putting me through
                                        Dm
You'd come running over straight to my room here tonight
                    F
I'm sorry but I need you

                      C
Take me out of this hell
               G
Oh, somebody help
                     Dm
Take me out of this hell
                F
Oh, I'm not myself

C                                                     Em/B
I wanna tell you what my mind is telling me I should do
                                     Dm
That I'm drunk and all alone in my room here tonight
                    C           F
I'm too sad to cry but I want to

Oh, if you only knew