Pretend You Love Me

Em                     G
I was just a kid but I learned much too fast
C                                   Am
Found the internet way too young, a scar that would last
Em                                   G
And you know I hate thinking someone else did this to me
      C                       Am
But I had all the resources because of your enabling
     Em                     G
And sometimes I wonder if I didn't hurt so bad
      C                            Am
Would I have been more loveable to my mom and my dad
Em                        G
If I went back in time to see six year old me
Bsus2                                         Bsus2
I'd say the shit does not get better, this is who you're meant to be

[Chorus]
G                                  Bsus2
And i'm a monster so you say, and I do this all on purpose
         Em                               C
Anyway I need to feel this pain, so I can try to crawl away when you say my name
G
  Hold me down and scrеam at me
    Bsus2
Said this is where I dеserve to be
   Em
So keep pretending you love me
           C                                         G
And i'll believe you although you never show it to me

[Verse 2]
Em                                 G
"Wow you're such a quiet kid" they all would say to me
C                              Am
Don't call me an old soul when i'm just unhappy
    Em                            G
You treated me like an adult when I was still so young
    C                                      Am
You ask what you did wrong but you fucking knew it all along
  Em                        G
I know that I was difficult or that's how you felt
          C                              Am
But I was told that I was selfish when I needed fucking help
    Em                           G
I remember when I lied to you, I ran away and hid
        C                             Am
But you didn't have to hurt me, I was just a little kid
      Bsus2                           Bsus2
I was just a little kid, and know i'm still a little kid

[Chorus]
G                                  Bsus2
And i'm a monster so you say, and I do this all on purpose
         Em                               C
Anyway I need to feel this pain, so I can try to crawl away when you say my name
G
  Hold me down and scrеam at me
    Bsus2
Said this is where I dеserve to be
   Em
So keep pretending you love me
     C
I'll believe you, i'll believe you
G                                  Bsus2
And i'm a monster so you say, and I do this all on purpose
         Em                               C
Anyway I need to feel this pain, so I can try to crawl away when you say my name
G
  Hold me down and scrеam at me
    Bsus2
Said this is where I dеserve to be
   Em
So keep pretending you love me
           C                                     G
And i'll believe you although you never show it to me