Im Not Okay

            Am
Tonight the monsters in my head
              G        F
Are screaming so damn loud
            Am
But I built walls so high
        C                 F
So they never even make a sound


[Pre-Chorus 1]
       Am
It's a mask, it's a lie
         G                   F
It's the only home I've ever known
            Dm
Cause being who I really am
         F
Has only left me more alone


[Chorus]
Am   F    C
I am not okay
      F           C
And I need you to see it
Am        F       C
I have so much to say
    F         C
And no one to hear it
Dm                Fm
The reason I keep quiet
                 F
With so much at stake
Dm                   Fm
I always feel like a burden
               F
Let it silence me
Dm                 Fm
You'll never understand
                   F
Why its so hard to say
         Am
I'm not okay


[Verse 2]
               Am                        G
I wish I had a scar, had a bruise on the surface
            F
Any kind of proof
          Am                        C             F
That everything I feel is more than just some sad excuse
            Am
My life's invisible abuse
           G                 Fm
I'm either judged or have to hide
          Dm
The only symptom you can see
           F
Is I don't wanna be alive


[Chorus]
Am   F   C
I am not okay
      F           C
And I need you to see it
Am        F       C
I have so much to say
    F         C
And no one to hear it
Dm                Fm
The reason I keep quiet
                 F
With so much at stake
Dm                   Fm
I always feel like a burden
               F
Let it silence me
Dn                 Fm
You'll never understand
                   F
Why its so hard to say


[Pre-Chorus 2]
           G
I'll never have the words
  Am                 F
I can't explain this hell
               G
But what if it kills me
     Am         C
If I keep it to myself
    F
To myself


[Chorus]
Am   F   C
I am not okay
      F           C
And I need you to see it
Am        F       C
I have so much to say
    F         C        Dm
And no one to hear it
         C
I'm not okay
         F
I'm not okay
          C
I'm never safe
           Dm
It's not a phase
     Am      C
If I finally break
                F
Would you still stay


[Outro]
            Am
Tonight the monsters in my head
              C       F
Are screaming so damn loud