I chose you knowing how it ends Still walked right back into it again Some pain feels safer when it's known Than hoping for something I can't hold I told myself I'd be okay I lie to myself in familiar ways This pain knows my name Feels like home, feels the same I run from peace, I chase the ache This love hurts, but it's familiar pain Your silence fills the room tonight I read your lies between the lines I say I'll leave, I say I'll go But comfort lives in what I know I swear I'll change, I swear I'll try But something in me wants this cry This pain knows my face Every tear stays in its place I lose myself, but still remain Inside this warm, familiar pain Maybe healing feels like nothing When hurt is all I've known I don't crave the wounds you gave me I'm just scared to be alone If peace feels like a stranger Then pain's where I stay This pain won't disappear But at least it stays sincere I don't know what love should be But this familiar pain is me