Used to do it all so pure For the love of the song no more Now I think about an applause When I open my mouth I've abandoned my emotions I've isolated myself When I see my mother in pain Wish I could feel what she felt And I don't know What this all means What this all means? It don't feel like me And sometimes I get insecure So I wear a dress on the town Hope a man notices me I don't know, it makes me proud I get jealous and I See myself in my sister's eyes At least she can have a good time At least she can calm down And I don't know What this all means What this all means? It don't feel like me And you won't give me the deal I wish I was real I wish I was I think about it all the time What I've been doing with my life 'Cause when it calls me back again I hope it meant something I hope it meant something I've been losing all my friends Stepping up onto the ledge Thinking I can be an angel But keep falling instead Find it hard to stay connected When I wanna feel protected So hold me, won't you? Just hold me 'Cause I think about it all the time What I've been doing with my life 'Cause when it calls me back again I hope it meant something, oh I think about it all the time, no What I've been doing with my life 'Cause when it calls me back again I hope it meant something I hope I meant something I don't know the meaning of Anything in this song Just wanna feel special I just wanna feel