Arose

                   C
If I could rewind time like a tape
                              Em                                  Am
Inside a boombox, one day for every pill or Percocet that I ate

Cut down on the Valium, I'da heard everything
                                         C
But death is turning so definite—wait!

They got me all hooked up to some machine
   G
I love you, being, didn't want you to know I was struggling
Am
Feels like I'm underwater submerged like a submarine

Just heard that nurse say, my liver and kidneys aren't functioning
      C
Been flirtatious with death, skirt-chasing, I guess
            Em
It's arrivederci, same nurse, just heard say they're unplugging me
               Am
And it's your birthday, Jade, I'm missing your birthday
                                                           C
Baby girl, I'm sorry, I fucking hate when you hurt, Hai

And sweeties, thank you for waiting to open gifts
               G
But, girls, you can just open 'em
                                         Am
Dad ain't making it home for Christmas

Wish I had the strength to just blow a kiss

I go to make a fist, but I can't make one, I'm frozen stiff
        C
I yell, but nothing comes out, I'm crying inside, I shout
    Em                                                         Am
My vocal cords won't permit me, I scream, but it's not aloud

You put your arm around Mama to calm her, wow
                                                                  C
I just thought about the aisle, I'll never get to walk us down

Never see you graduate in your caps and gowns
     G                                            Am
It's 'bout to be 2008, how's this happening now?

I've got so much more to do
                                                                         C
And, Proof, I'm truly sorry if I let you down, but this tore me in two

The thought of no more me and you
             Em                                       Am
You gave me shoes, Nikes like new for me for school

Doody, I'm trying, but you, you were the glue that binded
                                                      C
So many things—time, I'd give anything to rewind it
                                                         G
I had to walk down my halls and constantly be reminded
                                                                    Am
By pictures all on my walls and I couldn't sleep at night 'cause

That image burned in my brain of you on that table
                                                              C
Me falling across your body, not able to stand to save you

God, why did you take him?
                   Em
I´m tryna keep his legacy alive, but I´m dying, where's Nathan?
        Am
Little ladies, be brave, take care of your mother

Smile pretty for pictures, always cherish each other
             C
I'll always love ya, and I'll be in the back of your memory
                     G
And I know you'll never forget me

Just don't get sad when remembering
     Am
And, little bro, keep making me proud

You better marry that girl 'cause she's faithfully down
                    C
And when you're exchanging those sacred vows
                                      Em
Just know that if I could be there, I would

And should you ever see parenthood, I know you'll be good at it
Am
Oh, almost forgot to do something, thank my father too

I actually learned a lot from you
                   C
You taught me what not to do

And, Mom, wish I'd have had the chance
   G                                                            Am
To have one last heart-to-heart honest and open talk with you

Doody, I see you, I go to walk to you
                                                                 C
And I can feel my soul leave my body and float across the room
                                                Em
Nurses lean over the bed, pulling tubes out
                                                   Am
Then the sheet over my head, shut the room down

Girls, please don't get upset
                                                            C
I see them cheeks soaking and wet, so forcibly, don't wanna let
                                   G
Me go, pillow drenched, emotional wrecks
                                          Am
With every second, each closer to death

But suddenly I feel my heart begin to beat slow

Then a breath, machines go (*beep beep beep*)
                     C
Must've guessed the cheat codes to this shit
                     Em
I'm tryna rewind time like a tape
                                   Am
Find an escape, make a beeline, try and awake

From this dream, I need to re-find my inner strength
                                    C
To remind me, even if a steep climb I must take